Cup of Confessions: I just turned 32!

Hello my beloved Birthday Cakes!

I don’t have to tell you how fast I think time goes by. Last weekend, I celebrated my birthday with my closed ones. I had spent the whole weekend cleaning the house and the garden :p. Got new flowers for some extra color. I did a little grilled sandwich (we call it Croque in Belgium) buffet haha: Croque monsieur (ham & cheese), Croque Hawai (ham, cheese, slice of pine apple ==> yes, we associate anything with added pineapple with Hawai for some strange reason in Belgium. It might have been a Croque Taiwan…), Croque bolognese (ground meat, tomato sauce with Italian herbs), Croque Goat cheese (goat cheese, slices of figs, bacon bits, honey), Croque Smoked salmon with cheese and herbs and one with chocolate and nut spread for the kids :D…

There is of course no birthday without a cake so I made my no bake Oreo Chocolate Mousse cake. I forgot to take a picture of that, but everyone loved it! As usual I was afraid I wouldn’t have enough, so I had my parents get 2 more cakes haha! And there was a lot of Martini Bellini! Ughh, so good haha!

Most people are afraid thinking of the big 30. But turning 32, I don’t know, I feel like I was already easing into the number 6 months ago. I’ve been working so hard on self development this past year, which meant I lived my life to fullest for the very first time in my life. I packed it full of resolutions especially since the start of 2019, having not wasted any minute of my life.

I mean, sure, going to 33 seems a bit scary, but I’m excited for what’s to come. I have a lot of plans and I love the feeling of going forward.

Reading my journal of last year, I can read the self doubt, self reprimanding comments, the fear… And I feel like since then, I am at a better place. I’ve lost the anger, I’ve learned to love myself (not as I am now or ever, but as the person I was born to be), I no longer feel needy, I no longer hold grudges,… I’m free. I don’t even feel the urge to shop till I drop anymore :p, which is great news for my wallet haha!

Turning myself to positivity, training my brain to see the good things around me, to question my anger, to question my doubt, to question my needs,… has helped me achieve a level of happiness I never imagined I could have. And the beautiful thing is, I believe it will go further an higher… This happened only in a course of months.

I just wanted to make this post, I guess, to let you know that it’s not scary at all to turn 30 or 32, or 33. It’s about what you make of it. It’s about your mindset. If you think 30 is old, you’ll feel and be old. If you think 40 is old, you’ll feel and be old. I can tell you that if you commit to take care of your body, your mind, your brain (as an organ) and your soul, you may stay young for a very long time. The you in 5 years, in 10 years, in 20 years will still be YOU, but better, stronger! Believe that and work towards it. Don’t let any bad things in life make you bitter but use it as fuel to get your further. You can do it and you are worth it. Don’t believe me? Look up Jon Butcher’s 29 years vs 49 years! My new coach for Lifebook! I want to look great at my 50’s too!

Lastly, I wanted to share a little poem, my belly dance teacher Elisheba sent me (we couldn’t find the name of the writer though). It’s in Dutch, so I’ll write the translation below:

Wakker Gekust

Speelde haar rol, functioneerde goed
Deed wat men van haar verwachtte, maar leefde niet.
Wist niet wie ze was.
Ging langzaam dood

Onttrok zich, vluchtte.
Aangeraakt door de hemel, wakker gekust door een God.
Boog zich, vouwde zich op. Verloor zich in duizend dromen.
Zonk peilloos weg in haar oorsprong.
Hoorde huiverend haar naam.
Vond feilloos zichzelf

The translation:

Wake Up Kiss

Played her part, functioned well.
Did what was expected of her, but didn’t live.
Didn’t know who she was.
Died slowly…

Recoiled, fled.
Touched by heaven, got a wake up kiss from a God.
She bowed, folded up. Lost in a thousand dreams.
Sunk far away in her origin.
Chillingly heard her name.
Found herself without fail.

Thank you for this gift, Liesbeth…

Hope you enjoyed this quick post! Have a lovely week!



12 thoughts on “Cup of Confessions: I just turned 32!

  1. Mackenzie says:

    Happy birthday, beautiful!!!! Sounds like a truly wonderful birthday. I just learned what “croque” was a couple weeks ago- soooo yummy! Love your excitement and joy entering this next year.

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